destructious

went to prayer meeting at TCAC today. Just saw two pastors when i walked in, that was destructious. But praise God still, he can use whoever he wills and do whatever he will, he can raise up descendents of Abraham from stones, he can choose to raise up his army from trees, and three willing hearts is more than enough for him to use and do things that are unimaginable to us. We really don't have much use, but he is willing to use us. PTL.
So as we prayed for this prayer meeting, along with another mature sister who joined us later, we prayed for the church, we prayed according to the seven churches of revelations that we would not be lukewarm, we would stand firm against the devil and that we would capture that first love with God.
As i was reminded by Roger during retreat that we are to have a personal relationship with God and that we are to love him with the love he has for us, It struck me that this is the reason why i do these things and say these words, its because i love him, he is my creator, my father, my friend, my master and my king. each and everyone of the above roles listed has great significance to all of us, and we all should comprehend what those means. And what it means to love God, I for one will continue to find that out till I die and go meet him and then continue to find new significant meanings.
So i want to love him with all my heart, all my soul, all my mind and all my strength, but what does it mean? i gotta find that out, i gotta learn how to love him. gotta know in my heart that i love him. He is the desires of my heart and the apple of my eye, I wanna truly be able to sing that song of solomon to him with meaning and truth. wouldnt that be great?
So hallelujah, praise God for today's prayer meeting, i was truly blessed. And that, is truly destructious