Space monkey II

"Like a monkey, ready to be shot into space. Space monkey! Ready to sacrifice himself for the greater good."..."From now on, all those with shaved heads: "Space Monkeys"."
These are the origina quotes from fight club in regards to space monkeys. This one is for those who are willing to understand what i'm doing and also maybe what Enoch did, and why his small group is called "space monkeys"...to my understanding, correct me if i'm wrong noc.
So let's start with me shaving my head, for me its a symbolism, i have always been conscious, evenly overly conscious of what others think of me, think of my appearance. styling my hair would be one way to act that out, but shaving it just means screw all that crap and face my fear, if i spend that much time on hair, it takes away from my time with God, which is much more important. shaving my head means to confront my fear.
Second as a space monkey, we're ready to be shot into space, it means we're ready to do God's work. The monkey has no idea where he's going, he's going as a pointeer, the fronteer if you will, the forerunner as it says on one of my shirt that ypm gave to me. That we are out there in the forefront of the battle, the first ones to be sent out there, we have no idea whats ahead, so all we can do is trust God and his love, his faithfulness, his mercy and grace. shaving my head means to fully rely on God for what's ahead.
thirdly, the result of the exploration may be a great sacrifice on the part of the space monkey, but the purpose that it serves is for the greater benefit of mankind, i do this so that i could benefit everyone, when people ask me why i shave my head, i would say i shaved it for the previous two reasons, and if you wanna know who i did it for, let me tell you about this man called Jesus of Nazareth. shaving my head would be the opportunity to sacrifice what i have and use that to serve God's purpose, it gives me a clear mind to do what is His will and no longer focus on the little things like image and appearance.