Can you handle it?

I've been on lent, from NBA, so no watching, no gaming regarding NBA, not even checking the scores. I've gotta say its been pretty rough, i stoped them and now left with all these free time, and realise NBA was a big part of my life. Now i'm free, but now i get bound by another game. So stupid. Sometimes i wanna destroy myself for being so stupid. Today there was an article on the kids in uni and how they're more narcissitic than their previous generations, its also has to do with self indulgence and everything. Seems our parents have been so focused on giving us positives and trying to build our self-esteem, we're becoming big headed bunch. So sometimes i wonder, i tell myself alot of positive things, especially we christians. Cos we're a special bunch, chosen by the Father, sons and daughters of God, working for his glory, chosen generation and all that. Which is all good, but we run alot of risk of giving ourselves the glory and become bloated with self-esteem. Not to say that we continuosly tell ourselves that we're not good enough and dumb, but sometimes it could get to the point where we become self-centred.
Iunno, maybe its paranoia, but sometimes i wish i had another me that could kick my ass, to keep me in check, always reminding whose the real big boss, always reminding me when i feel prideful.
main character from Fight club would be an example, tho his split personality is teaching him and leading the way, i want more of a kicking and discipline personality. That could just say straight out to me, ur wrong and ur being prideful. its wierd, we're told not to put ourselves down so much, i sometimes find i go the other extreme. Time for a reality check.