watchman

boy am i glad God started me on Ezekiel, so much stuff to be learned. Ezekiel 33, Ezekiel was made Watchman for Isreal. In a sense its a scary thought, because when your people sin, you must warn them, if you do not warn them when they die of sin, and the LORD will hold you accountable. It's a pretty sticky position. Go tell people they are sinners, if you dont, u will be held accountable. Sometimes I wonder about chrisitians around me, do we rebuke or question with the same kind of conviction? Sometime I wish I had that drive, because that doesnt give me much alternative, I either choose to be held responsible for their sin, or i tell them that they are in sin... gives me more motivation to speak out thats for sure. So why is any other time different, if I see someone doing what they're not suppose to do then whats holding me back? The fear of offending someone come to mind.
Wed at prayer meeting, our youth pastor mentioned what do canadians hold as a great virtue. Tolerence, freedom comes to mind. That we must be receptive to other cultures, other opinions and even other religions. That even if something is blatantly wrong, we should respect their choice, they are right in their own way. That's the biggest illusion that we find ourselves in, that we're almost apologetic for being follower of Christ. It reminds of Jesus teaching in the synagogue, he blasted at the Jews, the Pharasees and the teachers for claiming to be saved because they are descendants of Abraham, and Jesus was not afraid to offend, the truth was much more important. So why are we so afraid to offend? Have we been so possessed by this culture that we forgot we can only worship one God? That we forgot that Jesus the THE WAY THE TRUTH AND THE LIFE? What have we become? I expressed that I wanted the gift of prophecy, and as a prophet in the old testament, they had to tell the people their sin, so I for one must not be afraid if I do want that gift, cos it comes as a whole package.

you're in the way

ahhhhh, byakuya, soooo cool, this one is for the bleach watchers. So Byakuya gets into a fight with karya, the lead bounto, and during the fight, Ichigo comes in to interfere. And all Byakuya says is, you're in the way. Half way through the battle Ichigo almost got attacked by Byakuya's attack, cos he was tangled with karya.
The primary objective of Byakuya is that anyone who disturbs Soul Society will be cut down. So as we relate that to our christian walk, it would be cool to think that we are fighters for God's kingdom, and if satan or anyone attempts to disturb God's plan, we'll have to cut them down. and second thing is that, God is the leader of the battle, in the anime it was said that byakuya was the most renowned shinigami in soul society, so he had alot of influence on the whole place, now if God wants to fight satan, us interfering will only get ourselves into more trouble, or even be held hostage by satan, just because we think we got our bankai(spiritual gifts, knowledge and armour of God) does not give us the right to interfere with God's work, in the end we're only gonna screw up and have God save us again. so sometimes its just best to step aside and watch the great one at battle, and in awe because he has the coolest fighting styles. Booyah

what can I give?

been reading ezekiel and this passage came up, ezekiel 24 : 15-27, especially verse 18, "...in the evening my wife died. The next morning I did as I had been commanded." shooooot, that's some insane faith. What would i do if God took away my wife? even my girlfriend if i had one? What if its something or someone else that i love and cherish...would i turn my back on him? would i be angry with him? would i "lament or weep or shed any tears"? or...would i do as i had been commanded. It's life like that that makes me wonder, how strong is my faith, should my faith be tested in such an insane way, would i be able to endure? would i be able to remember to call on God for strength, or would i be so blind by the pain that i just keel over and wish i was never born. Later God explains his reason for doing so,

"on the day I take away their stronghold, their joy and glory, the delight of their eyes, their heart's desire, and their sons and daughters as well- 26 on that day a fugitive will come to tell you the news. 27 At that time your mouth will be opened; you will speak with him and will no longer be silent. So you will be a sign to them, and they will know that I am the LORD."

All this will be and only be for the Glory of the LORD, reading this passage makes me glad that God doesnt test me beyond my limits, but it also makes me sad that my limit can only go so far, i probly am not willing to give up my wife, yes i am weak, but i pray that God will give me the faith necessary if and when the time should come. so in light of all that, i examine my life, and search all things that i love and cherish and ask myself, would i be willing to give that for God, for he has given his only begotten son, and his son has given me his life, what can i give?

sinfulness

well i guess its time to deal with it head on, why do i sin? and why do i keep sinning when i know its wrong. Everytime i ask for forgiveness, deep down in my heart i loath myself for even bringing that up with God, to know that i've hurt him so much, and now trying to put on a face to cover my sinful heart, when my brain is telling me, i'll do the exact same thing tomorrow, how can i ask for forgiveness?Oh its not like God still remembers ur sin, once they're forgiven they are forgotten. But dont kid yourself, God searched my heart and knew what i was thinking, what i was feeling, he knows what i had in mind, stop trying to play games, its a game that everyone loses, how you like that? Time and time again, i tell myself, start living the victorious life, but time and time again i fall short, whats wrong with me? Do I have NO SHAME!!!To ask for forgiveness, and only to hurt him again, if i were a son of mine, i would've abandoned him long time ago, but God doesnt want to, and he doesnt give up on me, so why do i give up on myself, and take no action AGAINST MY HABITUAL SINS!!!Why do i just let it drag on and say"I'll deal with it later", its one of satan's best lies and he used that to full effect on me, so knowing that, i still play along with it? i've got to be insane...No more lies, its not worth it

long time no blog

havnt been here for a while, mainly because internet is screwy at home. Which made me realised how dependent i've become to it, and what can a few days without internet do to me. Its not like i get panic attacks and need it like an addiction, just bugs when i cant check my email promptly especially when i know there are important ones coming in. May be i'm getting too paranoid about my freedom of choice. But i'd rather depend on God for everything than depending on worldly things. Woot
So heard a cool story from Jon. when someone is extracting silver from the impurities, the simple way of knowing when the silver is pure, is when the extractor can see his/her reflection in it. By the same token we are to be refined in the fire of God so that God can see his image in me. God smacked me over the head two days ago with this passage to go along with that story.

Then the word of the LORD came to me: 18 "Son of man, the house of Israel has become dross to me; all of them are the copper, tin, iron and lead left inside a furnace. They are but the dross of silver. 19 Therefore this is what the Sovereign LORD says: 'Because you have all become dross, I will gather you into Jerusalem. 20 As men gather silver, copper, iron, lead and tin into a furnace to melt it with a fiery blast, so will I gather you in my anger and my wrath and put you inside the city and melt you. 21 I will gather you and I will blow on you with my fiery wrath, and you will be melted inside her. 22 As silver is melted in a furnace, so you will be melted inside her, and you will know that I the LORD have poured out my wrath upon you.' " Ezekiel 22: 17-22

First when i read this, i was like, man the LORD is tough and he's gonna get rid of Isreal and destroy them. But then when i relate back to this story. I was like...ooooooohhhh shhoooooott.
Refinement by God, with his wrath he will purify Isreal as a nation so that they may NOT be doomed, but be pure and Holy so that they will obey God. Even God's wrath is outta love, shooott, how can God be so loving? It blows my mind. Even when he destroys me, its still for my own good, so that i can glorify his name...dang...wish my God was that cool, oh wait, he is my God, halleluya!!!

Just a little something to brighten up someone's day