the day is brighter here with you, the night is lighter because of you. Praise God, i finished my tax exam, and doesnt matter what the outcome is, i will praise him, for he has been faithful and brought me through the valley of tax. Now i gotta do my personal tax, dang. One thing after another.
I wanna go back to london this weekend, but now with all the things going on, it might be next weekend.
Today at prayer meetin was pretty good, big turn out, 8, i was pleased. And there were a couple that were heavy laden, for some reason i sensed, it might just because it was obvious. I wanted to pray for them, but when we split off into groups i were in his group, but i got the sense that he was taken care of, hazza for the body. None is forgotten, i got called a prayer warrior, funny, before that we were reading about pride and how the disciples were big time offenders, then someone calls me a prayer warrior, its true, i am, but not because i deserve, because God made me one. If it were up to me, well first year was a prime example of how little i cared about prayer, but praise God other people beat some prayer sense into me, ypls dragged me out of bed at night to pray, pps was huuuge. I think about the man i've become, this is what God called me to be, so i'm gonna milk it, if he called me to pray instead of going to China, i'll say yes Lord. But i do wanna go to the field that i've longed for and spread the word to chinese people, but God called me to pray for the ones who are going. i'm almost jealous of Irene, she get to go to the field, but i also know the blessings awaits me when i pray for her, so its all good. For some reason i've become financially more aware, i look at my status, i cant help but think about the expenses i will incurr next year and start saving, and not wanting to spend anything right now, but the parable of the smart servant comes to mind, use your worldly treasures to make friends when you have them, use the things that does not last to invest into treasures that last for eternity, i know the concept pretty well, but a hard time doing it. Darg, why dont i see the benefit of investing? Why horde the treasure on earth rather than spend it and save up in heaven, time to take off my eyepatch.

Into marvelous light

things are looking up. Even though I still feel depressed, and even tho the world around me is still pressing down on me, even tho many pressure is still there, even tho the weeks ahead is looking busier and busier, but things are looking up. Cos i look up and there he is, his majesty, love unfailing, glory beyond compare. So its all good. For he knows the plans he has for me, to build me not to destroy me. Mercyme has such great songs, i <3 them.
last week on bleach, in the first part, they were fighting a whole bunch of powerful arrancars. Each and everyone of them are engaged in their own battle, but knowing also that they're not alone, other people are doing their seperate battles, its comforting for me to hear the struggles that other warriors go through, makes me feel sane, makes me feel that i dont have it quite as bad as i thought so. I always wondered how i would measure up if i was faced with the challenge like abraham, giving up his son, or moses leading a whole nation out of somewhere and only to face their complaints. But that's ok, the battle i have today is my unit of measure. I like grimmjow's line, i'm not here to play, just draw your bankai already. That's how i wanna measure myself, i'm here to fight temptation, its too easy with God's strength, my God can render your attacks useless, infact his reiatsu would time warp you. So draw your bankai already, cos you dont have a chance.
The part of uhururu is super sweet too, she goes mental and destroys the arrancar. Such awesome lines, when i heard it, immediately i thought of God's kingdom and our jobs here on earth. My goal is Heaven on earth, therefore anything that obstruct that mission is dangerous, therefore must be destroyed, now I fly into the sky and choke the enemy *flying and choking motion.
The finaly we come across the genkai kaihou. I know my limits here on this earth, with myself i cant do jack, i can use my 3 flowers and still nothing, but God has sealed me with his seal, and with that seal comes the authority to use his power, so my genkai has being lifted, i am marked with his seal and its not my own power, but the power that is granted to me, contained within the seal. Delivered simply through God's words. Now i'm ready to fight.

Edit:
Found a verse relate to being sealed by Jesus Christ. Paul wrote in Galatians 6:17 "Finally, let no one cause me trouble, for I bear on my body the marks of Jesus." OORAH!!

Good Friday

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, your glorious light beyond compare, There will be an end to these struggles but until till that day comes, still I will praise you, I will praise you LORD. For you have been faithful, and you are and forever you will be. Freely you give and freely you take away, but you never take away your grace and your mercy, you never take away salvation, and thats enough for me. My God reigns and satan on this day 2007 years ago you were defeated. Once and for all, He has paid for my sins, with each lash of the whip and each pounding of the nail, in some way it was the worst possible day in history for God, cos his only begotten son was seperated from him momentarily, but with that comes the forgiveness of my sins, when the father turned his face away, its so that he can turn his face towards me. My sin, oh the bliss of that glorious thought, my sin not in part, but the whole, is NAILED to the cross, and I BEAR it no more, it is well, it is well with my soul.
Only Jesus could've beared my burdens, and only him could've casted it away from me, I think about my trials and sufferings, i never had to gone through that in my life, for me he gave his life away, and what can I give in return? Nothing short of my all.
For God so loved the world he gave his only begotten son, so that all who believe in him may not perish but have ever lasting life.
This is one thing satan can not take away from me, he can take away my gold, my cloth, my money, my friends even my family, but not this, for God loved me and sacrificed for me, and I have this blest assurance. its not that I earned this, but it was freely given. So I worship him with my heart mind and soul, to the God that is my ultimate caregiver, my conqeror, my LORD, my salvation, my joy, my victory, my bridegroom.